Dear Roxy,

For those of you who have not lost a pet, it’s harder than you can imagine. I didn’t think it would hurt as much as it does. In the couple of days since, I’ve been mostly okay and then I’ll suddenly think about her and start crying. It really is like losing a member of your family because she was family. She was always there. And now, she’s not.

I wish I had more time to say goodbye. From the time I found out to the time when she put down was only an hour. Afterwards, I asked Roland, my brother, if she had been medicated when I got there. He said no, she was just that sick. Becasue of that, I’m glad she can rest in peace now, but it still aches.

If I could talk to her just one more time…

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Dear Roxy,

If there’s one positive thing that comes from this whole experience, I hope you are finally feeling better and free of pain. We knew you were sick, but we thought you were finally going to be getting better. You leaving was so sudden, we were all blind-sided. That’s what hurt the most, we were given hope and the next day you were gone.

Sitting in that room, while you took your last breath, was awful. I’m very grateful that you were surrounded by all of us, but that was one of the hardest, most emotional things I’ve ever had to endure. If I’m being completely honest, watching you go was a little traumatizing. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to do that again.

I will never have another dog quite like you. You were definitely the dog version of myself. We both liked naps more than could be normal. And we both liked to snack more than we should. Maybe we were too alike and that’s why you never felt inclined to listen to me when I told you to do sit or lay down. We’re both too sassy for our own good. You were definitely more human than dog sometimes.

Many days filled with tears are ahead for all of us. It’s hard to even think about you not being at the house when I bring Stella over. I didn’t want to tell mom, but she definitely looked for you when we visited yesterday. She walked around the kitchen and living room and sniffed your bed. She’ll definitely miss you, not sure you would return the sentiment.

May you spend the rest of eternity sitting on a recliner with an abundance of snacks being fed to you at your beck and call. Take a nap for me. I’ll be seeing you again.

I love you,

Marissa

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12 thoughts on “Dear Roxy,

  1. I am so sorry for your loss sweet girl. May you cherish all of the happy moments you spent together and never forget them. ❤ My thoughts and prayers are with you! *hugs* xoxo

  2. I am so sorry for your loss. I lost a dog that was so close to my heart and he was poisoned by spiteful neighbors. I just came outside and he was gone and the suddenness is what makes it so difficult, but prayers are with you. He will forever be in your memories. Be blessed.

  3. I’m sorry for your loss. I believe that people who don’t live with pets can never understand how many blissful moments you can share with animals. They’re true blessings. What a moving, beautiful tribute. xxx

  4. I’ve had two long time dogs pass away and it’s one of the worst experiences I’ve evebr had. I was about and playing basketball with a tree opening, due to not having a basketball hoop and I got it through and my dog chased it and got ran over right in front of me. I’m 34 now and I still think it’s my fault but it wouldn’t stop me from getting another dog. Nothing like that companionship

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